Today marks 40 weeks since Joanna’s birthday. 40 weeks since we said, “see you in a little while.”
It’s almost impossible to believe that she has been gone a full 40 weeks–for as long as it takes to grow a little human. In the time she has been gone, people have gotten pregnant and already had those little ones. Those pregnancy announcements on Facebook in the first few weeks after our loss, the ones that cut like a knife, those babies are here.
Waiting for Joanna to come seemed like such a long, drawn out period. But somehow these 40 weeks since she left have gone by so fast, I almost lost count. And even so, J’s birthday still feels like yesterday, the memories raw.
I just wanted to share that…how time marches on whether or not we want it to. How it pulls us forward when we don’t have the drive to push ourselves.
Thanks for following our story for these 40 weeks, and for loving and supporting us through it all.
I wanted to share with you that I have written a new article for Still Mothers, one that has not been posted on my blog before. Please check it out – it’s about the silence of these last 40 weeks.
Read my article here: Silence
2 thoughts on “40 Weeks”
Time marchs on and stops for no one. True words. We may not like them, but that doesn’t make them untrue. I love you Honey, and Bill. I am proud of you two for being able to go on, there have been times in these forty weeks that I have felt I couldn’t keep on going, but of course, I have, because I have to. I am continually thinking of you and praying for you. Love you so much.
So sorry for the sadness of this anniversary of time. It’s so true that time seems to pull us, even in the fog and distraction of grief, forward, forever forward. But that doesn’t mean away from Joanna ~ she is always with you. And she knows, as you say through the song in the Still Mothers article (congrats on that), that you miss her and you wish she was here. Hugs. And love. ❤