A year ago today I was pregnant. 6 days earlier I had gotten the first positive pregnancy test of my life. It was the most exciting and wonderful time.
We had been trying to conceive (TTC) for almost 18 months and couldn’t believe we were finally going to be parents. We had told my parents the day after we found out, because as luck would have it they were with us that same weekend.
Because it was taking so long to conceive and because I was taking my basal body temperature (BBT) and knew I wasn’t ovulating most months, it was really quite a shock!
That week was sweet and scary. Knowing there was a baby was exciting. But I was also feeling like something was not right. Like I was cramping. Like this baby was not to be born.
Upon first check of my beta levels, I was definitely pregnant. The second check didn’t look promising and then the bleeding started.
A year ago tomorrow. No longer pregnant.
That first loss was so hard to handle. Thankfully some of our best friends came to town that weekend and were with us as our hearts were breaking.
This loss pushed us to see a reproductive endocrinologist (ER) – the fertility doctor. He actually said that everything looked really healthy but did diagnose me with PCOS. This confirmed my suspicions since I already knew I wasn’t ovulating regularly.
The ER gave us options. Try on our own for a few more months but add metformin to help sustain a pregnancy, use mild fertility drugs to induce ovulation or use mild fertility drugs plus IUI. Because my health insurance didn’t cover any treatment, we opted to add metformin and wait it out a few more months.
Somehow we conceived Joanna naturally. I wasn’t even a week into starting the metformin. A miracle at just around the two year mark of TTC.
And now, here we are again. Hoping for miracles as we think about our next TTC journey. Will it take another 18 months to give Joanna a sibling?
It’s National Infertility Awareness Week…so on this first anniversary of my first loss, I just wanted to share a little more of our story.
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The lose of a baby at any stage of pregnancy is hard to deal with. My prayers for you and Bill are that with the help and care of your doctor’s you will be able to have a healthy, happy pregnancy that ends with a happy, healthy baby. No baby will take Joanna’s place but you have lots of space in your hearts and home for Joanna’s siblings, and Dad and I have tons of love for as many grandchildren as our four children give us.